Mutatio vitae
Change is tricky. We often realize this when it's too late. My laziness made me unhappy; I had become my comfort zone’s prisoner. I was unhappy because I knew I wasn’t living up to my potential. The source of my unhappiness stemmed from the anger and dissatisfaction I possessed for being less than my best. The chasm between who I was and who I thought I should be was limitless. But for a long time I wasn’t conscious enough to realize that this was the source of all my sorrows, including brief bouts of depression. Upon self-examination, I eventually came to realize everything I have just said. The analytical ability came in useful for something, it allowed me to examine myself and determine cause and effect. My weakness became a strength, it allowed me to make the mindset shift necessary to reprogram myself. I changed. Even if I don’t have the level of success the high standards of my ambition demand of me, I accept what I have and who I am as long as I do my best. I enjoy the jour...