Mutatio vitae

Change is tricky. We often realize this when it's too late.

My laziness made me unhappy; I had become my comfort zone’s prisoner. I was unhappy because I knew I wasn’t living up to my potential. The source of my unhappiness stemmed from the anger and dissatisfaction I possessed for being less than my best. The chasm between who I was and who I thought I should be was limitless. But for a long time I wasn’t conscious enough to realize that this was the source of all my sorrows, including brief bouts of depression. 

Upon self-examination, I eventually came to realize everything I have just said. The analytical ability came in useful for something, it allowed me to examine myself and determine cause and effect. My weakness became a strength, it allowed me to make the mindset shift necessary to reprogram myself.

I changed.

Even if I don’t have the level of success the high standards of my ambition demand of me, I accept what I have and who I am as long as I do my best. I enjoy the journey of becoming slightly less shit every day, the journey of change, I enjoy the grind, the struggle, the hustle. You have to in order to get anywhere. And if my best isn’t enough, so be it. I will try something else. I’m fine with being imperfect. One thing I’m certain is MUTATIO VITAE had to take place.

Now it is your turn. Realize the changes that need to be done.